life is...

overwhelming.
difficult.
joyous.
exhausting.
happy.
full.
passionate.
fun.
exciting.
nerve raking.
confusing.
filled.
blessed.
persistent.
colorful.
good.
beautiful.
longing.
frustrating.
unfair.
hard.
fulfilling.
rewarding.
deciding.
guiding.
interesting.

the list could go on and on. these are a few things that "life is..."currently to me. it seems like i am in a constant state of "life is..." and i know that life never stops being any of these things but at times it seems as though they only intensify, leaving me exhausted and puzzled by what is going on. currently i feel like i am surviving, not thriving, not succeeding, not achieving, nothing...i am simply surviving. my head is not even above water and i don't know what to do but daily get up and try my best to accomplish something...when the list of "to dos" keeps growing and growing with no end in sight. even as i write this i can think of a million different things that need to get done and i won't have time for all of them. it is my own fault and i blame no one else but these last 4 months i have felt very overwhelmed. God must be doing something cause i am being stretched and grown.

how will things begin to make sense?

Lord, please continue to lead me and guide me even when i do not know the way. show me what your will is for my life. may you be honored and glorified in all that i do. may my yes always still remain a yes as long as i serve you.